3-Day WeekEND

So I totally feel like I wasted my 3-day weekend. We didn't do anything fun, and I was in my night gown pretty much all weekend. I just have not felt well. I convinced myself last night that I was coming down with the flu, a virus, or maybe had been infected with listeria despite the fact that I had no temperature or aches and pains. I just couldn't understand how it could be normal to feel as nauseous and as tired as I was all weekend. I mean, I had no energy and that's with napping. I don't know how to give an accurate representation of the intensity of the fatigue. The words escape me. The only thing I can compare it to is tiredness you feel when you have the flu....except without the temp and the achy feeling. I know that may sound strange, but that's what I experienced. Anyway, it has gotten better today. My appetite is dwindling down immensely, and I experienced my first post bfp vomit. Lovely.
In other news, I love yogurt, berries, tomatoes, and grapes now! I hope this feeling remains. Right now I feel like I can live off of the stuff.
Also, I have my first real dr's appointment tomorrow. I'm feeling a mixture of joy and anxiety over seeing the baby for the first time. I want everything to be fine. I want to see my baby. I want to hear my baby. It's not until 3:15, so I'm having the teacher across the hall watch my class so I can leave on time to make it to the appointment. I don't know how I will get through tomorrow. I know nothing but the appointment will be on my mind. I hope time has wings tomorrow!

Sea of Home Pregnancy Tests

I'm guessing your first question to yourself may be, how many pregnancy tests did she take? My answer: lots. This is just a small representation of the sticks that I have peed on since the first one on December 29th. Sad, I know. I know what ever reason I come up with for this madness, is still going to sound like just that...madness. I'll give my top three reasons anyway.

1. I wanted to see the lines get darker

2. I wanted to make sure I was still pregnant

3. I love finally being able to see the two pink lines that eluded me for 2.5 years

Your second question to yourself may be, is she done? My answer: no. Well, almost. I have one more dollar store test that I may just take for kicks. Maybe not entirely for kicks. You would be amazed at how reassuring two dark pink lines can be for a woman like me, especially when the test line is DARKER than the control line! Tim tried to talk me down out of this addiction, and it has worked to a point. I haven't bought anymore tests, and I don't plan on it either.

I am just so very much in love with this baby already and the thought of being a mother. It terrifies me to think that the dream that I've finally grasped could be snatched away from me. I know, think positive. That is my goal for each day. Think positive, think in love.