Wait a minute....

Feeling good. Definitely have that second trimester energy boost. I've been feeling like my old self. I've been cleaning, cooking, doing laundry, and doing the things I used to do. I did forcefully vomit twice over a the last three days, but I think it was because I ate too much in one sitting. Lately I haven't been really hungry. Then all of a sudden the hunger will hit me like a bag of bricks. Then I gorge myself on whatever meal it is I'm eating. Then I get sick. Then I vomit. I'm figuring out with pregnancy you can't do things the way you used to. Before, I wouldn't eat if I wasn't hungry. Now I see you have to eat even when you're not hungry to keep a disaster from happening.
Also, I am waiting, hoping, and wishing I can feel the baby move. About an hour ago Tim rubbed my stomach and it felt so good and relaxing. Then wait! I thought I felt something. I told Tim to stop, but when he did I felt nothing at all. I told him to continue, and I felt it again. When he stopped I felt nothing. I pressed the right side of my lower belly and it was tight and hard. Kind of like a 2-inch knot was pressed against my stomach. I don't know. This could all be in my head. I'm just looking forward to the day when I know without a doubt that I felt the baby move. I'm hoping that will be soon.
Wednesday, I had an encounter with the tiniest being I have ever seen in my life. I went to the hospital to see my cousins baby who was born prematurely and is now in the NICU. She is about 3 weeks old and 3lbs, but she is so small. I have never seen anything like it in my life. I got to help give her a bath and wash her hair. It was a very special experience, but also exhausting. She has to be handled with such care and she's so tiny that it makes you tired just giving her a 10 minute bath. It made me wonder what it's going to be like for me in 5 months. I know this is different because the baby is a preemie, but it's still a baby nonetheless.
Overwhelming.
Exciting.
Humbling.